depression session

hello world.
here with my daily post.



so today was pretty interesting.
the best part was that i got to see my baby with his
sexyy purple&black braces hehe.
well, that boy has a hold on me.
he's my addiction that i cannot and will never break.
i pinky promise.


well anywho, i miss him so much everyday.
he's pretty much my whole world.
and honestly i don't give a fuck about what all the people have to say.
this WILL last. you can't break us apart hoes.


i love you baby <3
10292k7 forever.

Time will pass..will I?

It's currently 12:15 in the morning and I'm wide awake.
I've been like this since the new year began.
Every night, same old shit. Same process.
I don't even know how to smile anymore.
I miss my happy times, but mostly, I miss being at RUHS.
I've been crying these pathetic tears every night, sometimes even crying myself to sleep.
Do I feel pathetic? HELL YES.
...but there's nothing I can do about it because it's going to be like this for a while.
I have a feeling my birthday is going to be the worst this year.
This is one of the first years I'm dreading it because I'll be at a school where I have absolutely no friends and I won't be able to enjoy it: PLUS I'M TURNING 15 ! :(
I hope my boyfriend,brother,bestfriend and cousin will be there atleast..
I miss my brother so much =/ he's all the way in south carolina training for the national guard when he doesn't deserve to being going through that shit because he never wanted to in the first place.
Stupid mom ...I wish she would just get in her head that we're getting older and are smart enough to make decisions for ourselves.

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND AND KUYA RYAN SO MUCH. I HOPE TO SEE THEM SOON :(

" This isn't Burger King sweetie; you can't always have it your way."
- ( I secretly wish people would have that one thing that will make them content with their lives. )

As the new year begins...

hey there :)
Well this is my first real blog.
I'm going to actually pursue this blog because i need this.
I honestly think i need to write (or in this case, type) what i feel and what I'm going through
because honestly, I'm getting tired of holding it in and not letting it out somehow.
So welcome everyone who's reading this.


i hope your ready because this is going to be a never ending roller coaster ride.

-Just to let you guys know, I'll almost always be inserting quotes in my all my blogs.


enjoy! ....and welcome to my life.